I had a recent experience with fear and doubt. I was struggling with a lot of fear, worry, depression, hopelessness, and doubt. A downward spiral. I couldn’t stop it. Situations seemed hopeless.
I felt like I couldn’t pray. I knew God wanted me to rest in Him more than I was allowing myself to and I tried. Well, striving and trying hard to be at rest sure isn’t resting! It was me working to be at rest in Him. I couldn’t just be. I had doubt, worry, fear, and depression right there trying to stop His Light, Love, Joy, and Peace from filling me up.
I was feeling really upset. I couldn’t free myself of these. It would seem for awhile I could have my quiet time with the Lord, read my Bible and feel better. I was for a little bit then they came right back. Eventually, it seemed like even in my quiet moments with the Lord, they were always there putting doubts in my head. I didn’t know what to do.
I was crying out to Lord, everyday, crying out telling him I needed help. I knew He was with me. I could feel Him with Me. I could see His light, but I still felt hopeless. I knew He was right there with Me but one day I couldn’t see Him, hear Him, or feel Him with me. I knew He was. I believed. I was being honest with Him and said “God I don’t want to feel alone right now. I need you. I need someone to talk to. I need help.” He was right there with me I knew. My one of my sisters called less than 5 minutes after I prayed that. She just encouraged me in the Lord. I don’t even remember what was said. I still felt like fear was still there but a lot more faded. My whole day seemed brighter and happier.
That night one of my other sister’s called me. We talked and she was praying over something that was on my heart. I was telling her something I was scared about. We were talking about Witchcraft, I saw something in a movie when I was younger and it always scared me and then it got brought up again recently. She started praying over me about it. God gave her a picture it was Aslan in the Chronicles of Narnia ( The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe) roaring over Narnia, breaking the spell of winter, and springtime filling with life. She told me to picture that. Picture Jesus roaring over me. Picture Him the Lion roaring over me. I don’t have to be scared because He already won, so whenever I get scared picture him roaring over me. In that instant and still it has been broken off.
Doubt and fear still tried to convince me that they have power, but I picture The Lion of Judah roaring over me. They are defeated. I can walk with Jesus in victory because of what He has done. I no longer feel depression, hopelessness, fear, and doubt. He broke those chains off. When they try and come back. I can rest and in Him picturing Him roaring. He is Stronger, He is victorious. He has won. That’s the power of the cross. Jesus did raise again and is living! He already won!
It brings me back into love. It’s all because of great Love. If there is any situation that seems helpless, lost, if you feel defeated. If there is any area in your life that needs breakthrough, any thing you are struggling with, picture The Lion roaring over you in Victory and Power and with Love. The Lion is alive and roaring. He is roaring over you!
4 But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, 5 even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved) Ephesians 2:4-5 New King James Version
But one of the twenty-four elders said to me, “Stop weeping! Look, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the heir to David’s throne, has won the victory. He is worthy to open the scroll and its seven seals. Revelation 5:4 New Living Translation